This is just a message to all the people who have purchased "Memoirs of an Occasional Superheroine" and who have given me feedback -- I appreciate your choice to buy this book and and your kind words about it more than you can ever realize.
Thank you so much!!!!
Honestly, this is why I keep writing.
Val,
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to say that the passage about "God's unwillingness to allow me to continue on my present path" really hit me.
Not only is it powerful as all hell, but I, as an indy filmmaker and unemployed writer, who can't get shit produced or published, feel this way on an increasing basis.
If it's not casting issues, it's a computer virus that annihilates the entire movie. Once the entire movie is re-cut, it's a dual hernia surgery. It's like God keeps upping the ante until one of our cast members or crew will suddenly die.
Maybe he wants me to believe in him, as many people have told me in many various ways. I'm a very spiritual person, but I don't believe in religion. Yesterday, I told my mother that the only way I still know what Thanksgiving is during my time of Vicodin is because Jesus was still dead on that holiday. I've had "chats" with God, but that was simply because nobody else would listen. The last time I "Hamlet Monologued" him, it was during UC Santa Cruz's annual student-written play festival, of which I never had a play in because of "God's unwillingness". Let me explain - I kept thinking I was going to graduate before the next one, so I never submitted a play. Everyone kept telling me that I was going to be the new king of the theater department or some tomfoolery: my teachers, Seniors, my friends and superiors. But I had a two year long tooth surgery, thus keeping me in school far longer than I had planned. So I never submitted.
Anyhow. I know that I prayed for the last time before then but pretty close. It was probably the first time since I was a child. The idea of "God" is different for me. I use him and the bible as a great literary device, and I would like to think I'm good at it because I understand and respect him or her or it as a character.
I felt great vindication last month when my old company, Countrywide, was slapped down by the government for stealing so much money from us. My heart literally pounded as I watched Angelo Mozillo getting berated by the courts. I know it's nowhere close to what Gilgongo Comics did, and it definitely brings back memories of exactly how crappy the real world of business is when I read your book (but also in a strange way, it makes me feel connected to the world again and not an invalid in my house), but I just wanted you to know that you've inspired me to start writing my Countrywide play again. I got through two scenes and then just stopped, because I got scared. I got scared because, even though a lot of what is in there so far is speculation and a lot is entertainment, I wrote much more accurately to the events that transpired - and what was SAID - than I meant to.
Okay. Didn't mean to write this long. Can't wait to buy C&D #1 when it comes out. The first step is finding a damn store.
Ah, that difficult second memoir...
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